Protected: I hope you’re happy in the end.
Posted on November 20th, 2008 by Justin
Protected: So fucking angry I’m crying and shaking right now.
Posted on September 21st, 2008 by Justin
The Move To North Campus
Posted on September 4th, 2008 by Justin
Alright..
I’ve not been online much this entire past week.. which sucks in a way, but whatever.
Basically.. we finally MOVED to our new place.
However, I need to use the bathroom.. so that’s all you get to know.
Bye!
A Belated Introduction
Posted on August 6th, 2008 by Justin
Alright, so, apart from the Robert stuff I’m dealing with, or the Michael legal crap I’m dealing with, or managing the server, or getting well, I’m dealing with ehh.. having to explain a few things. No justifying my actions, but just as a belated introduction to “me”, for anyone who happens by in the future.
So, here goes..
Indifference
Posted on August 4th, 2008 by Justin
Love is such a trite and complicated thing.
Some people pretend to be in love when they’re not, and some people to not be when they really are.
I haven’t spoken to Matt since Friday night, and he’s certainly been online. He’s had the same away message up all weekend, and of course, I’ve messaged him. Countless times. And, he’s just ignored me. So, as far as I’m concerned, I don’t have a boyfriend. Which really, really sucks, because I started to really, really like him.
Let’s be presumptuous here for a second, as playing this scenario through my mind makes the whole thing easier:
Matt went out, met a new guy, new guy is perfect in every way, and he moved on just like that.
So, that was a great past two weeks. Granted, every last one of my fears was touched upon at least once in some form, it was great.
When I was with him, I felt great, and when we were apart, I missed him. I can say that I loved him, for as much as a person can after only knowing someone but for so short of a timeframe, but, it was evident from the beginning I suppose; it just wasn’t meant to be.
Just another reminder from some higher something or other.. having a happy little relationship just isn’t for me.
First of the Month
Posted on August 1st, 2008 by Justin
Matt’s starting to understand me a little better, which is definitely nice. As well, I’m learning things about him, little by little. What I’ve learned and observed so far, I find very attractive as far as a relationship is concerned between the two of us.
Robert tried to play a card, and I shot it down. I won’t get into details, but I’ve got a few tricks up my sleeve for that bastard. Better believe it.
Yesterday was my brother’s birthday. Rah.
I wanted to write more, but.. whatever, I feel like shit. I really don’t want to go to work today, but I know I have to. -sigh- I feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeel like crap, and this time, I have no one here to make me feel better. =/
Changed the entry page as well as added links to my other online presences.
God, even the music I’m listening to is making my head hurt and it’s not even up loud. /sigh
I need a few days to recover. Will my work give them to me? Who knows.
That’s all for now. Maybe I’ll feel well enough to write more later. =(
Frustration
Posted on July 21st, 2008 by Justin
(3:29:01 PM) DarkNinjitsu666: I’m just really tired
(3:29:06 PM) DarkNinjitsu666: Of arguing with everyone
(3:29:10 PM) DarkNinjitsu666: Over what should be like what
(3:29:15 PM) DarkNinjitsu666: So I will code and implement things
(3:29:20 PM) DarkNinjitsu666: After it is all discussed
(3:29:37 PM) gmserenityrocks: Your brother frustrates me immensely. @_@;
(3:29:53 PM) DarkNinjitsu666: ?
(3:30:01 PM) gmserenityrocks: Thus why I rarely actually take part in designing anything, because anytime I have an idea or actually want something, I get shot down.
(3:30:11 PM) DarkNinjitsu666: I know
(3:30:20 PM) gmserenityrocks: With the god items, there will BE instant cast, that’s a given.
(3:30:32 PM) DarkNinjitsu666: His ideal is being as close to iRO as possible or whatever
(3:30:57 PM) gmserenityrocks: So wtf is the issue with adding dex to different cards, when IC is about to be easily obtainable by privelaged players who have invested enough time into collecting things to make god items with x_x
(3:31:05 PM) gmserenityrocks: That’s been my whole argument
(3:31:07 PM) DarkNinjitsu666: The only thing I don’t want
(3:31:14 PM) DarkNinjitsu666: Is to overwrite the original card effects
(3:31:15 PM) DarkNinjitsu666: :X
(3:31:15 PM) gmserenityrocks: Haraku’s been on the same page as me the whole time. x_x
(3:31:19 PM) gmserenityrocks: Yeah, exactly
(3:31:25 PM) gmserenityrocks: I proposed I just ADD to them
(3:31:31 PM) gmserenityrocks: take a normally useless card
(3:31:33 PM) DarkNinjitsu666: I still think card combos
(3:31:33 PM) gmserenityrocks: and add to it
(3:31:37 PM) DarkNinjitsu666: Are the way to go
(3:31:38 PM) DarkNinjitsu666: :<
(3:31:47 PM) DarkNinjitsu666: If you have 2 zerom
(3:31:49 PM) DarkNinjitsu666: They combo
(3:31:52 PM) DarkNinjitsu666: For +4 more dex
(3:32:04 PM) gmserenityrocks: Card combos make it so you absolutely HAVE to have certain things, which removes a crap load of alternative gears you’d use otherwise
(3:32:11 PM) gmserenityrocks: which is why I don’t use card combos to begin with
(3:32:30 PM) gmserenityrocks: 2 zerom is something people would hunt anyway
(3:32:39 PM) gmserenityrocks: I want there to be multiple possibilities
(3:32:42 PM) gmserenityrocks: different tiers of items
(3:32:47 PM) DarkNinjitsu666: Ah
(3:32:54 PM) DarkNinjitsu666: So long as you don’t over write their original effect
(3:32:55 PM) gmserenityrocks: zerom being the second choice compared to another card, etc
(3:32:59 PM) DarkNinjitsu666: I don’t really care
(3:33:08 PM) gmserenityrocks: Basically
(3:33:22 PM) gmserenityrocks: I don’t get on because I have absolutely no say in the creative development of my own project anymore
(3:33:54 PM) gmserenityrocks: So, essentially, it doesn’t at all feel like it’s my server anymore. It’s just a bunch of other people’s ideas floating around and being made a reality, and none of mine seem to really matter
(3:33:55 PM) gmserenityrocks: Now
(3:34:12 PM) gmserenityrocks: If I just started making changes and telling people to just deal with it, I’ll have another staff uprising
(3:34:25 PM) gmserenityrocks: But, when I did that before, wow, everyone loved how CUSTOM the server was
(3:34:30 PM) gmserenityrocks: and how much competition there was
(3:34:49 PM) gmserenityrocks: Now, it’s like, “NO, fuck you and your ideas. We’re doing this because we’re the majority.”
(3:35:12 PM) gmserenityrocks: I get on to send people their donations, administer punishments, and make sure WoE is working. That’s pretty much all my job consists of now.
(3:35:33 PM) gmserenityrocks: Whereas, it used to be, “Yay, just woke up.. what can I create today and make the game more enjoyable for everyone?”
(3:36:57 PM) gmserenityrocks: At this rate, I’m just going to open up my own server and just not tell anyone from SeRO anything about it, and devote all of my time I’d be spending coding custom things for SeRO, to coding custom things for it instead, because at least I’d finally get to realize my own dream of actually impacting the game and making something new, which is ultimately what made the game fun for me in the first place post-being a GM.
(3:37:45 PM) gmserenityrocks: /end venting
Anxious.
Posted on July 21st, 2008 by Justin
So, he gives me butterflies. And, after reading my last blog entry, he told me, it was a date. ^_^
*g*
Had I realized sooner, I’d have tried to be more relaxed. Maybe next time?
All I know is.. I love holding his hand. I love dancing with him. And I definitely loved kissing him as well. *smiles*
Since many people have asked what he looks like.. here’s a photo.. resized, but, hopefully he’ll let me take a few of him? We’ll see..
So, he’s 23, a Taurus, and.. the sweetest guy I’ve ever met. Hands down, he’s amazing.